New Beginnings

While my head is a long way from out of the mire I at least can control where my body is so I have been working hard to fit in some exercise to reduce the stress an make me feel physically stronger - amazing how that is tied so tightly to my emotional strength, I need to feel like a warrior to act like one. I want to say that I am so mature and classy that the 5k walks have had nothing to do with the fact that non-romeo has been getting in shape and looks great, but that is not the case, at least it is only a small amount of the motivation as I am not trying to lure him back (he was never bothered by my weight). In the interest of starting this new fitness approach I had my first yoga class last night. It was really tough but felt amazing especially when I managed a supported head stand for the first time in my life. Huge sense of achievement. It was a moment of truth to realise that some of the moves I could do years ago, I really cannot and the fuel I am putting into my body is actually making me sluggish and not giving me energy. The sad things about these epiphanies is that they do not always lead to a change in behaviour but one of the other aspects of Yoga is positive thinking so you never know! For the moment my new favourite poses are dolphin and supported headstand, if I can just get someone to hold my legs at home...